This morning in Dallas, I attended the Celebration of Life for my friend and fellow Flame Artist, John Fegan. It was one of the most tragic, and yet beautiful, services I have ever been a part of.
I wanted to take just a couple of minutes and share what Johnny meant to all of us in the Flame community.
Being a Flame Artist is a truly unique and special way to earn a living. As artists, we get to use both the technical and creative sides of our brains. We get to tell stories, make magic, do the impossible, and then share what we do with the world, whether it’s in a movie, a TV show, or a commercial. I’ve been doing this job for 30 years, and it’s still a thrill to see something I worked on flash across the TV or my phone.
The job comes at a cost, though. The stress level is usually high. The clients are usually crazy, and the unpredictable nature of the job keeps us away from family and friends.
But if you’re the right kind of person - and Johnny was absolutely the right kind of person - This is the best job in the world. When you meet another Flame Artist, no matter where in the world you happen to be, there’s an instant camaraderie. Similar to what teachers, soldiers and firefighters experience, I’ve been told. It’s a bond that can only be formed through shared experience: Shared excitement, shared trauma, and everything in between. There’s no better example of someone who loved the job for all of its ups and downs than Johnny Fegan.
Every day as a Flame Artist means new challenges. At the core of what we do is problem solving, and that feeling you get deep in your gut…that moment where you start to sweat, start to question every decision you’ve ever made, start to question if you’re good enough to keep doing this, that moment at the intersection of success and failure… that’s where the magic happens. That’s where the eureka moments happen. Those times when hope is lost and then suddenly, out of nowhere, you get a spark of inspiration that builds and builds until you find yourself flying at a million miles an hour, with no barrier between your mind and the machine. That’s what makes the job so spectacular, and Johnny LIVED for those moments. Johnny LOVED those moments. And nobody was more excited for YOU when you figured something out, slayed your dragon or did the impossible than Johnny.
Johnny loved the job. He loved the lore behind what it means to be a Flame Artist. He loved the thrill of the chase. He loved challenging himself and he loved sharing that joy with the rest of the community. Johnny was always so happy to hear about your successes, and was even happier to share what he learned with the rest of us. That’s why he will live on forever in our hearts: The seeds he shared, whether they were tips and tricks, or stories and enthusiasm, will continue to bear fruit for many, many years to come.
There’s a belief that we are each called to use our gifts—not to keep them to ourselves, but to serve others with them. Johnny did exactly that. He took the talents he was given and used them generously, joyfully, and with love. He lifted people up. He shared what he knew. He encouraged those around him when they doubted themselves.
Johnny’s hands may be at rest now, but his work is not finished. It lives on in the people he taught, the friendships he built, and the love he gave so freely.
Thank you, Johnny, for the light you shared with us. May you rest in peace, and may your memory forever be a blessing.
I’m so grateful to everyone who has donated to the Gofundme we established for John’s family: His wife, Gretchen, their beautiful two year old son, DJ, and their daughter, Olivia, due to arrive in the coming months. If you’d like to contribute, please use this link: Fundraiser by Andy Milkis : Support for John Fegan’s Family After His Passing